Job 33

"God always answers, one way or another."
So how dare you haul him into court,
and then complain that he won't answer your charges?
God always answers, one way or another,
even when people don't recognize his presence.

In a dream for instance, a vision at night,
God opens their ears
and impresses them with warnings
To turn them back from something bad they're planning,
from some reckless choice.

God may get their attention through pain,
by throwing them on a bed of suffering.

But even then an angel could come,
a champion--there are thousands of them!--
to take up your cause.
Before you know it, you're healed,
the very picture of health!

Or you may fall on your knees and pray--to God's delight!
You'll see God's smile and celebrate,
finding yourself set right with God.
You'll sing God's praises to everyone you meet,
testifying, "I messed up my life--
and let me tell you, it wasn't worth it.
But God stepped in and saved me from certain death.
I'm alive again! Once more I see the light!

This is the way God works.
Over and over again
He pulls our souls back from certain destruction
so we'll see the light--and live in the light.


& this is the way God works.
and I've experienced it first hand. I am no longer satisfied being on the border line with God. In these past few months I have really been sitting and waiting on God. I got to the point of total frustration wondering why God wasn't giving me answers when I was finally at a place where I wanted to do something that was in his will. It was hard, and I didn't find my answer right away. I had to let go of sin and things that were not right in my life and I had to surrender them to God. I felt totally out of myself and at peace with him. Within a moment of prayer and scripture I felt whole again. I felt re-connected with him, and I felt pure. I was separated from that sin that wasn't allowing me to grow, that sin that was blocking me from everything that he was offering and showing me. Finally after I had surrendered was when I felt at ease with my decision. I know that something can be changed in an instant, but I also know that it can be mended back together. God can bring hardship, but he also brings the healing. Even when it seems like it may be over or that something is going to come to an end, God pieces it all back together.
I still doubt my decisions sometimes, but I have a set of peace in my heart & I hope it stays.

show me your Glory, Lord.
& I will be changed by the power
of your Love.
show me your glory.

one.month.

well one month ago today I made a committment to you, and I plan on keeping it for as long as time and God allow us.

this past month we have learned a lot about ourselves and about each other. Each day we grow and can appreciate the other more than we did yesterday. A relationship isn't something that I run and jump into, I really want to make sure it's 'right' and when I made this committment, I made it because it felt right. I hope I never lose that feeling. I know it won't be easy (cause this past month has been HARD) but that's what relationships are ABOUT. It is no longer just about you, just one person, but it is now about two. I think the first few months will be the hardest. You are trying to figure out the person and what they do and don't do and how they handle things. Two totally different people trying somewhere to make it work. & it's hard. Though all of the disagreements, and arguments, and miscommunication - it's what it's all about. Two people will work and grow and will eventually love one another. A relationship is a hard but beautiful thing.

continue to speak and show us your will & your way as we look to you.

be glorified.

i believe this belongs to you.

hittin the gym again!

I signed up for the gym with Alisha last march, and we went almost everyday for months and we did really well. I really enjoyed it, I just felt good when I left.
Alisha and I slowly stopped going, and weeks and months began to past by... and until yesterday I still hadn't gone. I am paying $42 a month for this membership and it will cost over $100 or so to cancel. So I decided that either I start going again, or I cancel my membership.

I debated doing homework this evening, but changed my mind and decided to go to the gym instead!! It has been MONTHS since I have stepped foot into that place. SO... I got up and decided to go.

I got there around 9pm, and left when they close - 10pm.
I was really really happy to be there again. I am really excited to get back into the gym routine.

my stupid ipod broke tonight when I really wanted it... so hopefully it works again, OR I get a new one!

hitting up the gym!! =)

goodnight, goodnight, goodnight.

be. still.

you have found me & called me your own.
I find rest in your presence.
my hope is forever in you.
rescue me, I am yours.
you are soverign, oh God.
I run to the foot of the cross & lay at your feet.
I am your child.
all my ways are in you.
you carry me & call me into your arms.
you walk by my side daily.
you love me when I am weak & when I am strong.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
& I. will. be. still. and. know. you. are. God.
and forever I will be with you.

*consume me and don't stop burning until all my ways are in you.